It's 5:49am...and feeling Pink
Why am I up at 5:49 am? I feel very up and awake from putting up EBay auctions.
I took a little break and did not have anything listed for three weeks. This was quite a long stretch for me. I just didn't feel like sitting there scanning everything in and all that stuff. I've been constantly drawing and painting, yet felt I needed a break. But tonight, in record time too with two kids right next to me (Jon's feeling sick), I listed 12 paintings and more to come! I'm feeling a bit energetic. I don't have a cold or allergies migraines hitting me and I feel oddly good, knock on wood. I feel very "up" as my dad-in-law likes to say when people are feeling pink and happy. Said dad-in-law and mom-in-law are both sick with a bad cold. Poor dears. But at the moment, I'm feeling pink.
Did you ever do that? Feel pink? Or feel bluish gray? I've always felt a color and I dream in color too. Sometimes I dream in sepia tones or shades of blues. Sometimes I have intense vivid color dreams...where the grass is bright green and the whole dream world looks like something from the Wizard of Oz. Very odd. Plus, I remember a lot of details. I usually enjoy my dreams and have a sense of contentment when remembering them. But, if I get a nightmare it can be the most awful feeling and I will just be crying or so upset because of it. I'll wake up Jon and he'll be in his groggy sleep state listening (or falling back asleep) to my panic dream.
I'm a dream interpreter. I like to know what my dreams mean and I've written many down to understand them later. Usually my handwriting is so messy (because I've written it half asleep) it looks like a drunk wrote it. But I think it helps to do this...even to comfort my self if I've had an esp. bad one.
It's amazing that people dream. I remember seeing this movie about this bear cub (I think it was called "The Bear") and there was one scene where the little cub falls asleep and they interpret what he's dreaming. For me, that is the sweetest and funniest thing...seeing a bear cubs dream. I believe it was done in claymation and had this jittery look. Very funny...I wonder how I'd feel now. I saw that movie 12 or so years ago? At the time, I felt it was ridiculous because it was done in a realistic filming manner and the dream sequence didn't feel natural. Also, the bear grunts/squeals were disturbing after awhile. Maybe I don't need to rent this...I wonder if my kids would get a kick out of it. At least it doesn't have the voice over narrations...though that can be fun (or funny) too.
(This is what happens when you wake up from eBay jitters at 6 am in the morning. You ramble. Sorry to all the patient folk that read this. )
Benji. I am a Benji fan. I don't really collect any stuff of Benji but I do have a Benji video (out on loan at the moment), an old Benji coloring book I like to look at now and then and if I see a children’s book with Benji, I might get it for the kids. I have the Benji movie where the kids get kidnapped and Aunt Bea (from the Andy Griffith show) is in it. What gets me every time to cry is the song. Something about love and by the time the guy starts to sing the second verse I have to leave the room or I will be crying all over the place. I'm strange that way.
Here is a fantastic quote I found the other day. For me, this is what it is:
Forgive us that often we forgive ourselves so easily and others so hardly;
Forgive us that we expect perfection from those to whom we show none;
Forgive us for repelling people by the way we set a good example;
Forgive us the folly of trying to improve a friend;
Forbid that we should use our little idea of goodness as a spear to wound those who are different;
Forbid that we should feel superior to others when we are only more shielded;
And may we encourage the secret struggle of every person.
I like this very much when I found it at Buffy the Unitarian Slayer (excellent website, by the way).
Yesterday was funny and odd. I got some Janis Joplin CD's from free cycling(!) that were left at the person's daughter place of employment (a dog grooming place). Jon got them for me and had to work a mean 12-8pm schedule on Saturday. I put Janis on and Lydia, Norrie and I rocked out. Then we got ready for tea with some kids from the Homeschooling group we met. They were a bit late and let's just say the kids started to feel very impatient; tea was served and my sanity restored.
The kids arrived and they brought along three baby bunnies and the mama. I'm going to have to go to their house and take pics and do some paintings. They were the cutest things in the world. I would have snatched them up but I think Jon would have had a heart attack. Tempting, very tempting!
The kids ran in a parade playing recorders, harmonica's and beating impromptu drums. Norrie started passing out from the sheer exhaustion and was in peaceful sleep half way thru the play date. My goodness! Everyone left and both my girls were a sleep by 4pm. Amazing.
I did some outside house clean up as we've had NO SNOW. This is not a bad thing. It was cold out but as long as there isn't 3 feet of snow and ice, I'm happy. My sis-in-law is freaking out with thoughts of Global warming...and probably rightfully so. But I may as well get some yard work done, if I can. So, I trimmed the rose bush in front, swept some spots. I felt so home-body-ish. And I played with Mr. Nelson who seriously needs a bath. His feet are black with mud and probably covered with rotten pumpkin juice (I finally shoveled that off the porch too...that was pretty gross...interesting but gross).
I made a basic compost by the garage. Basically, a big old bag of leaves and grass clippings was left there for quite a while and just broke away and I started adding leaves and the pumpkin. Now the compost is getting bigger. I guess I should mix it around or something and see what happens. I hope I get a few pumpkins but I have a feeling the squirrels will take care of the seeds for me. They did that last year too. I left a bunch of pumpkins out on the side and thought I'd get a huge field. Not so. Chippy's and squirrels feasted on the pumpkin guts. Ah, well.
When Jon was little
I hope I have this must energy when Spring does actual come. I even cut branches to force indoors. I am crazy. : ) But happily crazy.
I've noticed that sometimes people, whether it's on-line or in person, can be rather off putting at first. In other words, they (also we and me) have this way of either sounding or looking hard to get to know. But I've realized now it's totally first impressions. Thank the stars, people give me a second chance, now that I think about it! What I've come to realize is people are people and not to be too hasty to judge. Yes, certainly there are people who just are better left avoided but some are like the best books you didn't realize were good because the cover is so different or you were afraid to open because you weren't sure what you'd find. But you've got to read a few pages and maybe skip around and you find, yes, this will be a good book.
Homage to Jannson, Moomin
And speaking of books, I'm reading a collection of children's books by Tove Jannson. This is the wonderful, wonderful world of Moomin's. Let's just say, I dearly love this world of unusual critters. There is a quiet thoughtfulness these little characters portray that make you wish you'd acted better when you scared and upset. In one book there is a flood that destroys all of Moominmama's house items and home. She's, of course, upset and they try to salvage her things. But only a few bits are rescued. They have to leave and they are all sad but they go on with their lives and see what's next. The water does recede and they do return to their home and plan to redecorate. Certainly, it's much, much harder in life but there is this sense that even floods can't steal their humor and inner strength. Anyway, that's what I'm reading right now.
Well, it's now nearly an hour since I sat to write...6:38am. I think I will make some tea, put my glasses on (as I didn't bring them with me...silly me) and read some Jannson till I fall asleep. Good morning and have a happy Sunday!
I just realized I can highlight a word, click link and and it will automatically put the link/word together. Well, that is a nice surprise!
I just looked outside, there is a light covering of snow, of course!