Friday, January 23, 2015

Death is Inescapable

Creating positive change

My sister in law, Julie, passed away on the 11th of Jan 2015. It's less than 2 weeks. My overwhelming feeling was to just get up and move. As in move to a different part of the country/world. I guess that's normal to feel. You just feel like you want to dump everything that isn't important and go some where less painful...at least I do/did. I'm starting to calm down a little and the thought of her being gone but not gone in our hearts is easing a bit.

For some reason, watching crafting videos made things feel better as did making stuff. It is also so good to talk to good friends and have warm hugs from caring people. In this regard, I'm very grateful for this sorrow. But it is sorrow and knowing and naming it this, helps. I just wish it would warm up and not be 10 degrees or so for weeks on end.

Creating positive change comes with realization that things don't need to be so dark even in death. It doesn't take away the loss or hide it or make it less painful but embraces it and allows the waves of sorrow to come and go. No one is alone in their sorrow. We have all felt it from the very beginning of existence. I watched my favorite speaker, Leo Buscaglia. He said it best when he said, I'm not afraid of death, anymore. I use it as a reminder that I have limited time to do what I want and to get moving... Yes, it's that easy. We are all going to leave this earth, some day. Hopefully, not for a long time but we all do. I'd rather carry on and know that my loved ones who are gone, are with me, free of pain and encouraging us to do better. 

Monday, January 19, 2015

In loving memory...

 

Julie Angel
 







I made this for my mother in law in honor of our Julie who passed away from pancreatic cancer.

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

I hate cancer

I fucking hate it. (sorry for the use of bad language, but I'm really not...just really upset...I'd use fracking but not too many would know it is much work than the old "f" word). It's a horrible disease that robs every single person in the world of joy and light. We lost my sister in law, my only big sister, to pancreatic cancer this weekend. It was way too soon and it was horrible. It makes me angry that this is not being cured and upset that people are in such pain. That is the worst part....the pain.

When I think of all the people I've lost most of them are from cancer...few, sadly, are old age. I've talked with my mom about it and I've read about how the cells start to mutate and attack themselves for whatever reason. I just wish, wish wish, there was a cure or at least a way to turn around the cell thinking into repair mode. Maybe some day in the future.

Right now, a heavy weight is on our hearts and minds. Life continues but in the quiet moments, after the hustle and bustle, we have time to mourn our dear sister, Julie Gottshall. She was so quiet and shy and reclusive. She was probably want to slap my hand for even writing her name above. That's why I couldn't write about it often...she would have hated it and resented me for adding her to the pages of my blog/FB or what ever. She wrote a book under a pseudonym, Sally Ann Malec and we published it for her...I want to change the cover and add her name, properly. It was her baby and her life. I feel sad that all her dreams, she wanted to write more books and stories, are gone with her. She said she stored them in her head...at least we have her book and in digital format (thanks to her dad). Which is more than a lot of people can say, including my self.

Feisty and unnerving at times and laced with honey, she could be a handful when her mask of quiet melted away. It's all good. Just really stinks and suck that this happened so quickly...I wouldn't want her to suffer longer but how I wish she didn't have this and would have lived to an old age instead of 54. Seems so young. Oddly, she lived just one year shy of 55, the same age her beloved author, Louisa May Alcott passed away. Strangely similar. I'll miss you Julie and try to do right by you and our artistic capabilities. <3 p="">
 

Wednesday, November 05, 2014

Perler bead fun

 stuff we've been up to




Contest Time!

I'm giving away a great book called Daily Zen Doodles by Meera Lee Patel! If you would like to be entered in the contest, like my page, Emily Dimov-Gottshall's Studio/EDGE Gallery  and leave a comment! The contest runs till November 30th! If you tweet or share on tumblr, let me know in the comments and you will have an extra chance per share. :)






Daily Zen Doodles by Meera Lee Patel is a fun book inspired by a daily inspiration quote and doodle. Inviting and sweet, this book really keeps the reader interested as you reflect on the quotes and give your self time to sit and fill in the simple zentangle drawings. You can complete them any way that you would like. " Quieting your mind is a practice; it requires patience, perseverance and most importantly, time." So true and what a great way to make time for your self for as you do a little daily mediation. If you would like to get a copy these are available at amazon and at Ulysses Press
Also, if you would like to win a free copy, leave a comment below and you can be entered in a contest to win your own copy. Contest ends November 30 2014. For more than one chance to win, like my EDGE Gallery page on Facebook and leave a comment for 2 chances.

Friday, September 19, 2014

Added new work and Halloween themed paintings on eBay!

Take a look at my new work on eBay! I've found a huge amount of previously unlisted art I did a few years back. Enjoy!




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