Sunday, October 08, 2017

Cross posting...

I shared this on my other blog that is supposed to be only for my art or art like like to share. Oh, well. I thought I'd also share some Halloween art too! Life is too short to be worried about these little, I'm too tired to change it all.

 I love these black cats in the pumpkin patch! I can't remember if I put them on redbubble or not. Either way, sweet! Oh, and here's my Redbubble site too. My daughters and I started a shop on redbubble over the summer. I hope to include more of our work. The cool thing is we sold a Halloween Frankenstein card to someone in England! How cool is that! I totally want to do more Frankenstein spoof work!

 I could not resist kitties and pumpkin costumes. Silly, I know.
 I'm sharing this as my fan art of Hocus Pocus. I was going to sell copies on red bubble but felt like it didn't deviate too much from the original so am just sharing it as part of my tearsheet of work. ;)

It's been awhile since I've written. Mainly, because I've been busy with school, finishing up the post bac program...thinking of masters degree. But mostly, wanting to start teaching. Lots of good things are happening and that is promising. The biggest thing I went through was a surgery in September. I didn't realize I had an umbilical hernia. Most likely happening between the close births of my eldest daughters. This means I probably had it for about 14 years. This summer it progressed from pain to the worst pain I've had. There are specifics that I'd prefer to forget but anyone can look them up regarding a strangulated hernia. To be quite frank, all functions were going to zero and my feelings of anxiety and negative thoughts were abounding. Skip ahead to after surgery, all thoughts are optimistic, energy level is increasing to beyond my imagination and I feel like a new lease on life. It's an incredible feeling. It really does. It feels sort of like being on the edge of disappearing and then, someone (my doctors), opening up a whole new path to life. I feel very lucky and I feel that people should check for these things even more, hernias, that is. The combination of hypothyroidism and having an undiagnosed hernia seems to be what has been holding me back all these years. When I think of all the issues I went through, the impatience of some people, the cruelty of others (you would not believe how abusive people can be to those who are fat or intolerance to those who are ill), to my own intolerance of my self ( I did a fair number of angry self thoughts), my own vanity and impatience and lack of understanding and so on, I'm glad to be where I am now. I don't feel angry anymore. I feel more at ease with my self and more at peace with how things are going. I am very grateful to be alive.

If I were a doctor, I would want to be able to do this for others: Make them feel better. It's simple and so true. I hope more people, regardless of profession, try to make each person feel better. It's hard to do but worth it, even a little.

Anyway, so, that is the biggest news. For healing, I'd say, I'm about 85%. There are still twinges but my God, I can lay on my tummy mostly comfortably and not feel sick. I'm still fat but I don't care. I love me and I'm so happy to be well.

Wednesday, November 23, 2016

Have a Happy Thanksgiving~

My thoughts are with the people who are fighting against oppression in North Dakota. It is a turning point in history and I'm praying more banks pull out of it and stop these intrusive and environmentally destructive actions. My other thoughts are with family and friends and hoping all are content, healthy and find/do good works. 

I started a play list called Rainbow Warriors on Spotify. It has nearly all of the songs from the original Greenpeace 2 album tapes I had years ago. It was good collecting them and brought tears, memories and a feeling of sadness for all the things that are happening with protests and unease. 

A lot of people are upset about the election and some are very happy. I'm more in the middle. I hope there is change and I hope to see Mr. Trump be more like Teddy Roosevelt. That is my hope. I focus on this quote: 

"You never regret being kind." 
               Nicole Shepherd


Monday, October 31, 2016

Being in school again


So, if you didn't know, I went back to school. Thankfully, I was placed in the graduate program but am filling in some missing links for classes as it's been a long while since I've been in school. A part of me was slightly depressed about it but another part of me was, finally! One of the biggest hurdles of going back wasn't so much getting used to school and classes, I love them all and I get a feeling of happiness learning new skills, even if it's challenging. The biggest issue wasn't even family adjustments (the family sort of rebelled against change...esp. me not being around as much, choirs slipped, that sort of thing). For me, it was finding out I have a serious health issues. I've talked about it quite a bit, hypothyroidism, but I didn't realize it was holding me back so much...and that it would sort of "flush" itself to the surface. I view it as a good thing that happened, really, as I don't feel as energetic as I have in years. I was reading a book about this and I could totally relate to the women who suddenly were treated with the right illness and had a rebirth. I should really do some more butterfly art...that's how I feel too. It even has changed my perspective on the seasons. For years (and this blog probably has accounts of it), I was so down about the seasons, light and dark and all that as the sun moves away from the us. Now, I hardly recognize a feeling of depression or feeling "down". Things just feel more upbeat and positive...even with the current election crap. haha

   I sometimes want to shout from the tops of buildings, get your thyroid tested! I really do. I feel the more people get tested, the more awareness doctors have, the better people will feel. It's almost like there is the reluctance (thinking of how I suspected I had it 3 years ago, and my doctors, then, did nothing) in the medical profession, I hope this is changing big time.

Switching gears a bit, I've been participating in the paintings. I did all 31 days of drawing in ink and sumi ink. I had a great time doing this and what's more, practiced my art and feel more confident about my skills. Here's a few from my flickr account:

"Wreck"#inktober #inktober2016

"Creepy"#inktober #inktober2016


Oh and I did a photo shoot at our church in honor of St. Francis! They came out really cute! 

Kitty magic!

Bark or Treat!

I want a Halloween redo!

I forgot to take photos of the kids, had school on trick or treat night and missed that, husband forgot to take photos of the tricks or treats and my two adolescents are more friend oriented now (and that sort of sucks but is nice too). Oh, well.

The best thing was we did church/movie/dance and it was a blast. We really had a good time and I highly recommend having a church themed event because it is silly and fun and safe. That is the best thing, really. I love being Episcopalian as we're open about everything and our group is very progressive (which I love!). I hope most people can do stuff like this. What a difference from the group I used to go to as a kid where I was given the hairy eyeball for wearing a tee-shirt with dancers on it. O.m. goodness! What a waste of energy. Now, we're all rainbows, mentally progressive and happy. A good, good feeling. :D Plus, we got to see Beetlejuice and it was a lot of fun.

Friday, September 30, 2016

Being Hypothyroid and treatment

I've been having treatment since March, now. Last month, I found out I was lower then I should be and they upped my perscription. The difference is night and day. Within a few days, I was feeling nearly my old self. I've still lost feeling in my fingers and feet but gosh, I feel more in my fingers...painful almost. It's incredible just to feel the pain on some odd level. Like I'm alive, I'm here. I hope this starts helping my feet. I would love to feel my feet being tickled again.

Energy is up. Even my colds aren't as bad. I have to be extremely strict with gluten. If not, I feel my throat swell. No cakes or cookie or most things I like for me. :( I had Chinese food and suffered from that. Depressing. Still, it forces me to make my own Chinese meals but darn it, sometimes you just want Chinese food take out. :( When will a restaurant have gluten free around here? Sigh.

No pasta, and I have been snacking less because I don't feel hungry. No change in appearance or size, yet. I hope there is something in that regard.

I'm proud of my self but I need to change my habits. I should be sleeping right now but am typing. Signing off in a few. But I had to update and say, I am so happy that my body isn't trapped in a sluggish world of numbness. I feel like I was in a strange fog compared to what I feel now. I know this isn't about my art but if our bodies are our artwork, I see how feelings and state of minds can be so important. Oddly, I had so many strategies to help me manage what I was going through, I feel like they make me happier as a person. I still need to learn to let go of some fears or awkwardness or rather make stepping stones and blocks to get to the point of feeling more comfortable.

One of the other things I'm amazed at is, I'm not as embarrassed and my voice feels stronger. I feel stronger.

One thing is if you are hypothyroid do not take your med before blood work. It will screw up your results. Also, if you suspect you are hypo, and get tested with a normal range. Get a second opinion as soon as possible. I wasted three years of my life thinking I was going insane because of my body crashing around me. So much stress, depression and anxiety for nothing. Trust your body and signs. I wish I had but am so, so glad it was finally caught. I am very grateful for my mom catching her's and encouraging me to get tested. <3 nbsp="" p="">
Have a good weekend!

Friday, September 16, 2016

Autumn day at last

finally, fall seems to have expressed her self. Took a little while to warm up to but the moon seemed to say time to change, my dear, it's time. Autumn shook off summer and pulled on her gray cloudy hat. "So, there!" she said and stamped about the green leaves kicking them a lighter shade of pale yellow green. She had started the change and the sigh of seasons could just catch our breaths away because we knew, something was up. "It's all good," said the bears and deer in the woods. The birds blinked wonderingly. Was it time for them to begin the Southern move? They were ready as the air already held a certain chill they did not like. Their Northern cousins laughed at their sensitivity, happily plotting out which were the best trees for seeds and which would be the best people to fill their bird feeders. Older squirrels thought of days gone by, remembering they need to start stocking up for winter and keep the young ones on their toes.


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