On a snowy winter day, it's good to paint with many colors!
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Then, I fell asleep and felt sick to my stomach. Jon woke me up and I had to go to Target and get some supplies (not baby but house supplies, organizing). So, I guess that's nesting for you. I also pulled out a bunch of decorations for Christmas and we decorated a bit more. I found this tree that I got a few years ago...I only have the top part which is about 3.5 feet tall. I want to put it in a bucket with a plaster base and it will look very charming as well as stand the test of small hands and paws. I may do this tomorrow if the weather isn't too icky (supposed to snow/rain with ice). Sigh...
I also did about 50 new paintings...inked, that is and need to paint them. So, I guess I fit the bill of a nesting mama. I'm just glad I got more bottled water (for some reason this appeals to me) and trail mix. Today was just a strange, fun day. Now, I think I'll grab a handful of some delightful trail mix and go to bed. Poor Jon seems to have gotten my cold. Thankfully, we have a supply of facial tissue, tea and donuts (they seem to fit well together).
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
I still can't believe Thursday is Thanksgiving. I'm going to try and make a new dessert but if I can't do it, it's not the end of the world. It's something I learned about while the gals were studying Australia...called a Pavlova cake. Wish me luck.
Not only was I surprised about the due date of number 3, but we've had the most snow I've ever seen before Thanksgiving! It's amazing how much there is...TOO MUCH. I dread going out and slipping. All I can do is just putter around and walk with my yak tracks. It's a pain.
A good angel sent us a gift last week and I was able to get new winter coats for my gals. They needed them as the free one's are better for sledding if anything. So, I was glad about that.
We're trying out the girl scouts. I hope I can do this and if not, hopefully, the grandparents will help us out with all of that. We went tonight and the kids had a good time. I'm looking forward to the cookie drive, I know, carbs but they're so good if rationed!
My hands are all dried out and cracked as is my face. I cracked my lip just smiling and it hurts so much. I still can't believe how awful this weather is being...and it's supposed to last for at least 2 more weeks. I was hoping we'd go snowless until mid-December like some of the previous years but nope, not this time.
I've been working a little projects here and there...just trying to get stuff done for gifts and things. I hope I can do it and still do everything else (i.e. cyber school, raising baby, etc). The good thing is I don't have venture (too much anyway) out in the cold as much if I was going to a brick and mortar school. I'm getting the hang of the schooling stuff too. I realize now, I have to use the morning a little more productively and it all works out well. Feeling better from my cold, helps too.
Well, so far nothing really new happening in terms of baby stuff. I'm supposed to have a little shower on Saturday. If everyone just let me sleep while I was there, I wouldn't mind. :)
I guess I'm just glad I survived driving around in all the snow/slush/ice...boy, does this make a person feel tired out. Now, I know why Jon feels so tired all the time...he has to drive the shuttle to State College (for the carpool), several times a week. Sigh...
Well, I'm off to bed and boy do I need it.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Monday, November 17, 2008
Thursday, November 13, 2008
I'm at the point where I'm letting go of things...in other words, I'm not going to fret about getting things finished or done. I don't need to stress my self out and if I have a nice person who will listen, I'll vent a bit and get things off my mind...such as my sister and sis-in-law. :) This helps. I've also noticed if I let go of something that is annoying instead of constantly thinking about it, it really frees up my mental state. I actually have more energy and not feel weighted down by hang-ups. Sounds easy but is hard to do, let me just say.
I started to think about that Buddhist story...
Two monks were returning to the monastery in the evening. It had rained and there were puddles of water on the road sides. At one place a beautiful young woman was standing unable to walk across because of a puddle of water. The elder of the two monks went up to a her lifted her in his alms and left her on the other side of the road, and continued his way to the monastery.
In the evening the younger monk came to the elder monk and said, "Sir, as monks, we cannot touch a woman ?"
The elder monk answered "yes, brother".
Then the younger monk asks again, " but then Sir, how is that you lifted that woman on the roadside ?"
The elder monk smiled at him and told him " I left her on the other side of the road, but you are still carrying her "
It's basically about letting go of emotional baggage...as one writer put it, "The moral of that Buddhist monk story: The senior monk had broken rules but for good reason. Once the purpose was fulfilled he put her down and continued on. He never gave it a further thought. The junior monk however did not touch the woman but he had brought up the actions of the senior monk when it was an action of the past. Therefore the junior monk was carrying the burden of what the senior monk had done as emotional baggage.
We have little use for the past except for the purpose of learning from our experiences, good and bad. Just like in the Buddhist monk story, we need to let go of any burden the past may place on us. It's happened, it's over, it cannot be changed, we can only move forward and create a compelling future."
I have to remember this more often in my life. Learn from the past and go forward. So very true.
Well, because I'm trying to do this (not always successfully but I am trying) I have been finding more time to create art. It does feel good to create new paintings and finish up projects I started awhile back. It's refreshing and such a good feeling, really. I was rummaging through some boxes and found all these little sculptures I had made. The gals wanted to paint ornaments we bought for Christmas (plaster ones from Michaels) and I set them up in the basement. Next thing I know, I'm working on stuff too. It was very comfortable and nice...even Jon came down to chat while we did this. I have to clear out some space down there but it's not too bad and sort of chaotically creative. I would like to get some bin type things to sort stuff...I realize I'm an eccentric artist and will always be involved in many varieties of art...so, I need something like bin/drawers to store everything. There is this one artist who creates the fabulous "I Spy" books and his studio is something I dream about. Just so how I'd have it with lots of clearly marked drawers and such. So, this will have to be something I aim for in the future.
I feel so good about creating new work...it actually made me see what I was doing wrong a few months ago. I had this mental hang-up about finishing this big project. Basically, I wanted to finish the big project first and quickly but have realized I'm miserable if I don't do smaller works (and I freeze up trying to complete the other stuff). I jumped into painting the miniature paintings and felt so relieved...I needed to do that as well as my other stuff. I guess that's how my mind works and I'll just have to accept that. So, I've given myself a year to finish the bigger work and get it fine tuned. My goal is to submit it to a publisher about this time next year. It feels strange to put this into writing...I hope I can succeed in this. Lately, I've begun to feel like if you really try and really work hard and have the support you need, it will happen. I won't worry about the "what if's" anymore. I'll continue as planned and do my best. That's all I can do.
It's a good feeling to have a plan and one that isn't too strict or too loose. I'll give it my best and I know I can at least finish what I started. I feel this way about homeschooling too. I was surprised to learn we were much more progressed on a couple of subjects than I've given myself credit for...I was doing the books primarily and hadn't recorded it correctly on the cyber books. Now, I see we've covered a lot of ground actually. :) Also, it shows that Norrie is finally starting to grasp certain concepts and this is refreshingly rewarding.
Well, I'm tired and I'll be loading pics up soon...of various art projects, I think and more.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Sunday, November 09, 2008
I did get all the shopping done and I found something called fabric glue. I need to fix the hole on my winter coat. It's annoying as it's a down coat and all the down is flying everywhere. I got a cute patch to put on top of the glue...a flower with love on it. I think it will look nice.
Some great news, not huge or anything, but I found my watercolor box! It was under the art table in the dining room in a box. I should have looked there first but didn't...I'm glad about finding it. Plus, I found my glasses and a few other things that seemed to be missing. I must have been a bit scatter brained lately. Thank goodness it's all coming back to me. Now, I have to do some long awaited painting.
I found out something about my self. I'm not fond of Halloween candy. The small pieces just make me want more and I think if you get too much, you get addicted to the sugar and feel blah if you don't get the same up feeling from candy the next day. I think this is why I really wanted salads the last few days.
Started reading a book by Mauve Binchy...I got it for a quarter at the last flea market for the year. It was from the red hat society. They also have a booth at the Duncansville Antique mall...I thought that was a great way to get sales, etc. I may look into this either for the museum or my own art. I'd like to partner with somebody to do this. Also, I found out I missed the entry to have a craft table at St. Mary's...I did this last year and got a tremendous cold...so, maybe it was a good thing to miss. Oh, well.
I'm really trying to reduce my stress level as it's been pretty high lately. I had a home nurse drop by and found out it was a lot lower if I'm comfy at home. So, running around would make your heart beat a bit faster...esp. when 7.5 months pregnant.
I just want to take a nap but just found out we have to go to the sis-in-laws place instead of grandparents. It's a longer drive and a bit exhausting to think about right now. I just want to take a nap...maybe after I have some lunch. I hope I feel better about wanting to go anywhere after I rest.
Thursday, November 06, 2008
I have to say a part of me feels a bit awkward about homeschooling...I feel like I'm still learning and the school system we're using seems a bit in flux (they have these strange conversations about tests and things...)makes me feel a bit anxious. I guess they're pretty hardcore homeschoolers or something and always seem ready to do battle...which is probably a good thing (but makes me feel like, what am I doing here?). I guess I don't know what's going on completely and feel a bit at a loss. I hope whatever it is about tests, work itself out and I don't have to worry about it too much.
We did some school work today...language arts and phonics. The gals are getting better at working and I need to be more patient. I keep forgetting Norrie is still in K...and Lydia is in 1st. I started to feel they were older because of their height...which isn't fair. I do believe they'll get where they need to be if I'm patient and not frazzled. So, today we started by doing basic yoga and stretches...oddly, this helped me to be calm! :) I'll do this for a few minutes in the beginning of the day and I know I'll feel better.
Yesterday, was an amazing day but I started to feel sorry for myself. I decided to indulge in it for a good 5 minutes and felt a lot better. Plus, I pulled out my old journal and did a bit of writing. I did a list of all the things I wanted to do the next day, and it helped. I didn't feel so chaotic and out of control. I felt much better.
I'm still amazed we've got a new president and can hardly wait till January. It's just wonderful and even more so, that the world is backing us. When I think of all the suffering that has happened, this is sort of like a passage into, hopefully, a new direction full of positive change and getting rid of bad habits. I know that's a mild way of putting the past couple of years. I'm hoping we can learn from the mistakes and make huge steps towards a cleaner, community oriented world and partnership with each other. I honestly think a lot of people agree with this...just a few folks who are afraid and should listen instead of yammering on and on.
I just read a quote by Ralph Waldo Emerson...
"If you have not slept, or if you have slept, or if you have headache, or sciatica, or leprosy, or thunder–stroke, I beseech you, by all angels, to hold your peace, and not pollute the morning."
Boy, do I need to remember this one! Have a good day! :)
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
Morning Has Broken
As Sung by Cat Stevens
lyrics by Eleanor Farjeon
Morning has broken, like the first morning
Blackbird has spoken, like the first bird
Praise for the singing, praise for the morning
Praise for the springing fresh from the word
Sweet the rain's new fall, sunlit from heaven
Like the first dewfall, on the first grass
Praise for the sweetness of the wet garden
Sprung in completeness where his feet pass
Mine is the sunlight, mine is the morning
Born of the one light, Eden saw play
Praise with elation, praise every morning
God's recreation of the new day